3/12/2004
Mom asks me to clean out the dishwasher before they left for cali. I don't mind in the least but then right in the middle she asks me if I knew that Hawaii was long distance, haha you know what, it's like hey I know california is long distance but shoot I can't even fathom a state further away with an ocean separating us as being long distance.
There have been a lot of situations that have just made me, not really snap but, get really angry. I think that can be attributed to my lack of sleep.
In the morning I went to watch Matt and Alvin get their hair cut at gentlemen joe's. Then I went to chill with cooning at the the pool and then we went to her house and watched pirates it was fun. I went home at like 5 and my dad brought me fish tacos, so good. I proceeded to fall asleep until 930 or so when alvin texted me and I went over to mikes to play ninja guiden (sp?) and HALO but right before HALO Amanda called me (I can't even call it being interrupted cause that implies that it was unwanted and this was def. not unwanted) from hawaii. We talked for 72 mins 32sec. good night.
There have been a lot of situations that have just made me, not really snap but, get really angry. I think that can be attributed to my lack of sleep.
In the morning I went to watch Matt and Alvin get their hair cut at gentlemen joe's. Then I went to chill with cooning at the the pool and then we went to her house and watched pirates it was fun. I went home at like 5 and my dad brought me fish tacos, so good. I proceeded to fall asleep until 930 or so when alvin texted me and I went over to mikes to play ninja guiden (sp?) and HALO but right before HALO Amanda called me (I can't even call it being interrupted cause that implies that it was unwanted and this was def. not unwanted) from hawaii. We talked for 72 mins 32sec. good night.
grr
I wake up this morning to a badgering mother, full of accusations and what not. Saying that one of the gossip queen mothers on my sisters soccer team saw me all over some girl in my car yesturday morning. Then she accusses me of being all over Amanda, hmm... no wrong sry good try though. I don't even see her in the morning let alond mac on her in my car. Basically I'm just pissed at my mom for ever thinking that I would be capable of doing something like that. Augh that pissed me off the entire day. I texted her and told her never to do that again then shes tries texting me back and calling but I don't even respond to her. Then I talk to her after school and shes like Oh my gosh I was just joking. Whatever shut the f up.
Then my whole situation with Cooning gets worse. I mean I like the girl and all but geez. She only calls me when shes "bored" and has nothing else better to do... I do not want to always be your last resort, I do have my pride. Whenever I'm with her she always talks about other guys; I went to visit her at the car wash and I even bothered to help her wash cars but still all she could do was complain about how other people haven't visited her. Every 3 minutes was oh gee I wonder if he'll ever get here. It got to the point where I was talking to her and in the middle of my sentance she just blurts out "I can't wait til Dan gets her, I wonder when he's coming"...... hmmm oh gee thanks. Then she has the audacity to criticize me and the dings, saying that whatever someone tells one of us then all the dings will know. Very true my dear but let me tell you one thing, if you tell anyone of us in confidence no one will ever find out. She told me she was having a bad day and an even worse week and she uses said excuse not to tell me what is wrong with her, which is no biggie; however, then she texts me that she tried to tell alvin when she didn't even try to tell me. Then she tells me that out of all the dings she's the closest to me.... but she can tell dan and vinny things she just can't tell me=Utter hipocracy.... oh well just getting some of this out
Then my whole situation with Cooning gets worse. I mean I like the girl and all but geez. She only calls me when shes "bored" and has nothing else better to do... I do not want to always be your last resort, I do have my pride. Whenever I'm with her she always talks about other guys; I went to visit her at the car wash and I even bothered to help her wash cars but still all she could do was complain about how other people haven't visited her. Every 3 minutes was oh gee I wonder if he'll ever get here. It got to the point where I was talking to her and in the middle of my sentance she just blurts out "I can't wait til Dan gets her, I wonder when he's coming"...... hmmm oh gee thanks. Then she has the audacity to criticize me and the dings, saying that whatever someone tells one of us then all the dings will know. Very true my dear but let me tell you one thing, if you tell anyone of us in confidence no one will ever find out. She told me she was having a bad day and an even worse week and she uses said excuse not to tell me what is wrong with her, which is no biggie; however, then she texts me that she tried to tell alvin when she didn't even try to tell me. Then she tells me that out of all the dings she's the closest to me.... but she can tell dan and vinny things she just can't tell me=Utter hipocracy.... oh well just getting some of this out
3/09/2004
Happy Birthday!!!!!!
Augh es mi cumpleanos hoy! Que es esto??? First off I never tell anyone about my birthday, Idk why exactly but its just the fact that I don't like to burdon anyone on the whole idea of presents and a big to do and what not. I mean I love my B-Day but it's like I don't want or need anything so as long as yall are with me it's all good. So yeah Amanda was upset I didn't tell her. Sry Amanda :). A couple days ago I told her I wanted to spend today with her but didn't tell her it was my birthday; since thurs is spring break and she's leaving on thurs during school and gets back next thursday, the day I leave for Cali for Nomads. This isn't good cause that means that we don't get to spend any time together the entire break except maybe on the last sunday. GAY!!!
Day started off horrible cause of mr moon and his gay test grading. But everything else was great especially in math class where brent, josh, and Keenon sang to me.
Anyways, I went over to Amandas to chill after school and her family ended leaving us home alone... BIG mistake haha jk yeah right. We couldn't figure out what to do so we ended up just cuddling while watching tv it was fun. at one point we were standing up infront of her tv, arms around, fingers interlocking, and I could our reflection in the mirror=> and I thought to myself what a wonderful birthday this truly was.
Then comes the awkward part: One of my friends informed me that one of our mutual friends has feelings for Amanda. Now I'm not great friends with said person, but nonetheless I still feel bad. I guess she has seen this too cause she brought it up and I kinda had to play dumb on this one because I do feel bad. We're on the couch having a good time when who calls? Yep, he does and he and a friend are coming over to study with her. So long story short he acts strange, Amanda walks me out to my car and there is this perfect opportunity to kiss her but the thought of him inside causes me to hold back. So what could have been the end to a great b-day ends up me becoming the age of a man then wussing out. Way to be MAC way to be.. I guess mrs. b's right... you're not mac ur nomac
Day started off horrible cause of mr moon and his gay test grading. But everything else was great especially in math class where brent, josh, and Keenon sang to me.
Anyways, I went over to Amandas to chill after school and her family ended leaving us home alone... BIG mistake haha jk yeah right. We couldn't figure out what to do so we ended up just cuddling while watching tv it was fun. at one point we were standing up infront of her tv, arms around, fingers interlocking, and I could our reflection in the mirror=> and I thought to myself what a wonderful birthday this truly was.
Then comes the awkward part: One of my friends informed me that one of our mutual friends has feelings for Amanda. Now I'm not great friends with said person, but nonetheless I still feel bad. I guess she has seen this too cause she brought it up and I kinda had to play dumb on this one because I do feel bad. We're on the couch having a good time when who calls? Yep, he does and he and a friend are coming over to study with her. So long story short he acts strange, Amanda walks me out to my car and there is this perfect opportunity to kiss her but the thought of him inside causes me to hold back. So what could have been the end to a great b-day ends up me becoming the age of a man then wussing out. Way to be MAC way to be.. I guess mrs. b's right... you're not mac ur nomac
Perplexed
Haha after church I got invited over to Amanda's for dinner. It was all cute her and I at eating by candle light...aww ;). We had steak and mashed potatoes and corn that she made me eat (jk it was good). While we were eating her mom and youngest bro were watching the discovery channel with mating ostriges that was great. After dinner she showed me around her upstairs, saw her 2 snakes, 4 cats, her bros room where she goes when she talks to me. She takes me into her room and I go jump on her bed and lay down on her pillows, staring out the window and she comes and lays down next to me, and what I want to do is just grab her and hold her close but I don't.... we hold hands and stare out her window for awile then she tells me her back hurts and I give her a massage. By this time it's late and I've kept her from doing her hw and getting to bed at 930 so we decide its time for me to go so she walks me out to my car, we hug, and say our goodbyes.
Shes is so....so....idk its hard to describe her, and the great amout of joy she brings to me and my life. But the more time I do spend (idk if spend is the right word, more like enjoy) with her, the more I begin to think. I mean I do like her but I am going off to college next year in California. What am I gonna do?
Shes is so....so....idk its hard to describe her, and the great amout of joy she brings to me and my life. But the more time I do spend (idk if spend is the right word, more like enjoy) with her, the more I begin to think. I mean I do like her but I am going off to college next year in California. What am I gonna do?
3/07/2004
long sunday
Wow is it just me or do sundays where you don't do anything seem to go on forever? Lets see I was up til 2:30 or so last night talkin to Amanda, then this morning at 7 my mom calls and wakes me up to tell me about the all state players. Then after finally getting back to sleep my mom calls me again at 745 and wakes me up so I give up on the whole sleep issue and just start moving.
So I decide to get everything ready for tonight, for studying and stuff. So I go get coonings spanish book and then decide to get my hair cut. Then I go visit Po and Christi and almost get them in trouble with their manager so I leave. Then I go chill with cooning at her pool, we talked for awhile then I go home. Then I start playing games from ninjai.com, such a tight site. After a little while Miss Amanda calls and we talk, shes great. I get to go to church with her tonight so thats kewl.
So I decide to get everything ready for tonight, for studying and stuff. So I go get coonings spanish book and then decide to get my hair cut. Then I go visit Po and Christi and almost get them in trouble with their manager so I leave. Then I go chill with cooning at her pool, we talked for awhile then I go home. Then I start playing games from ninjai.com, such a tight site. After a little while Miss Amanda calls and we talk, shes great. I get to go to church with her tonight so thats kewl.
3/06/2004
ditched
Well besides going to get pizza with my dad tonights been a complete waste. People have ditched me tonight. Well first off, Amanda and Cooning ditch me for girls night, which isn't so bad cause they need their girls night. But then the dings said they would call me but they didn't; well not until like 1030 and I'm almost positive they had been there for awhile. oh well no biggie right? Except for the fact that now some are going to mill and some are going to See Hidalgo; neither of which I want to do. Oh well I guess I do need a night alone.
Lost in Translation
Mr. Waddell's class is soo much fun, I'm so glad I'm taking that instead of Honors govt. not saying that I wouldn't like that class or anything just that he is so funny that it makes 10th hour fun to be in.
So yeah kinda a long drawn out day but not too bad in the least. So afterschool I tutored aly's bro for about an hour and a half and then diddy and vinny came over to play some HALO. I need to get better at HALO so when I go to SDSU I don't get killed; but alas I do suck.
mom and sister left for tucson after school for a soccer tournament, then my dad had work at 10 so I was left with a house all to myself for the night. PARTY!!!! haha yeah right. I picked up Amanda and we went to blockbuster but we ended up not choosing one and just watching Lost in Translation. I had such a wonderful evening with her, we cuddled on the couch and she fell asleep in my lap... Awww how cute. Yeah I love holding her hand, she's really amazing.
So yeah kinda a long drawn out day but not too bad in the least. So afterschool I tutored aly's bro for about an hour and a half and then diddy and vinny came over to play some HALO. I need to get better at HALO so when I go to SDSU I don't get killed; but alas I do suck.
mom and sister left for tucson after school for a soccer tournament, then my dad had work at 10 so I was left with a house all to myself for the night. PARTY!!!! haha yeah right. I picked up Amanda and we went to blockbuster but we ended up not choosing one and just watching Lost in Translation. I had such a wonderful evening with her, we cuddled on the couch and she fell asleep in my lap... Awww how cute. Yeah I love holding her hand, she's really amazing.
3/02/2004
A GRIP
well been a long couple days...
well lets see where I left off: oh ok I WAS going to ask out Amanda and I did after church next to her car. I was nervous but it didn't feel awkward, so I guess thats a good sign. The rest of the the week doesnt really matter with school and such, I hung out with the Dings on fri. Then comes sat. Amanda and I went to see the Passion of the Christ. Good movie but intense, when it comes to this idk what you can define "good" as becuase he gets beat for like 45 mins, which is horrible but still. I held her hand in the beginning for awhile then her phone started buzzing and she looked at it, and idk what it was but amist the son of god getting beaten the holding of hands just didn't seem to appropriate. Afterwords we went to MaggieMoos (heard from sources that she likes to eat there) but it was kinda torturing her cause she couldn't have chocolate. hehe. Then we went over to my house and she met my parents and sister and learned that my dog actually wasn't dead. We sat on the couch and watched getting shorty for a little then we put on SNL; we held hands which, for me, is great. So overall a really good night.
big controversy amoungst the dings:
they played "halo" and a bunch of people drank a little too much and big confusion. People got pissed, people smoking that I wished hadn't. I hate it when you have this picture of what a person is like then they do stupid stuff to prove you wrong and destroy your perfect or close to perfect image of them.... oh well whatever this always happens so what now.
Dan and Katie po declared their love for one another but dan really likes mellissa so he tell people and they tell po and she gets mad he appologizes all things not ok but getting there.
This all made me that much more glad I was lucky enough to spend my night with Amanda. So Amanda for being you I would just like to thank you.
well lets see where I left off: oh ok I WAS going to ask out Amanda and I did after church next to her car. I was nervous but it didn't feel awkward, so I guess thats a good sign. The rest of the the week doesnt really matter with school and such, I hung out with the Dings on fri. Then comes sat. Amanda and I went to see the Passion of the Christ. Good movie but intense, when it comes to this idk what you can define "good" as becuase he gets beat for like 45 mins, which is horrible but still. I held her hand in the beginning for awhile then her phone started buzzing and she looked at it, and idk what it was but amist the son of god getting beaten the holding of hands just didn't seem to appropriate. Afterwords we went to MaggieMoos (heard from sources that she likes to eat there) but it was kinda torturing her cause she couldn't have chocolate. hehe. Then we went over to my house and she met my parents and sister and learned that my dog actually wasn't dead. We sat on the couch and watched getting shorty for a little then we put on SNL; we held hands which, for me, is great. So overall a really good night.
big controversy amoungst the dings:
they played "halo" and a bunch of people drank a little too much and big confusion. People got pissed, people smoking that I wished hadn't. I hate it when you have this picture of what a person is like then they do stupid stuff to prove you wrong and destroy your perfect or close to perfect image of them.... oh well whatever this always happens so what now.
Dan and Katie po declared their love for one another but dan really likes mellissa so he tell people and they tell po and she gets mad he appologizes all things not ok but getting there.
This all made me that much more glad I was lucky enough to spend my night with Amanda. So Amanda for being you I would just like to thank you.
