9/21/2003
my so called friends
haha it was tight i was watching fresh prince today and i heard carleton say a cool quote about some friends. carleton banks--u think they are ur friends but they only hang out with you for what you can do for them.
i feel u man, i feel u.
ill do anything for my friends mostly cause i hate to let them down, but i think there in that lies my fatal weakness: i first off assume that everyone i meet is my friend or has the potential to be (yeah its a prestigeous club everybody wants to join), but in actuallity they are not and do not always want to be. It's sorta like this: since i like everybody i automatically think that everybody likes me. But as many of us know that is just not possible
And i mean i know im not anywhere near the nicest guy in the world but im sure as hell gonna try to be. i use to be that mean guy when i was younger, and let me tell you its no fun. always trying to out do people and succede at the expense of others, while it worked in some aspects, the end results werent as i expected. It is not worth it to hold grudges or to hate people, what people dont understand is that it doesnt matter y waste your time thinking about people who dont make you happy? You all should listen to Bobby McFerrin. He is so awesome.
i feel u man, i feel u.
ill do anything for my friends mostly cause i hate to let them down, but i think there in that lies my fatal weakness: i first off assume that everyone i meet is my friend or has the potential to be (yeah its a prestigeous club everybody wants to join), but in actuallity they are not and do not always want to be. It's sorta like this: since i like everybody i automatically think that everybody likes me. But as many of us know that is just not possible
And i mean i know im not anywhere near the nicest guy in the world but im sure as hell gonna try to be. i use to be that mean guy when i was younger, and let me tell you its no fun. always trying to out do people and succede at the expense of others, while it worked in some aspects, the end results werent as i expected. It is not worth it to hold grudges or to hate people, what people dont understand is that it doesnt matter y waste your time thinking about people who dont make you happy? You all should listen to Bobby McFerrin. He is so awesome.
9/20/2003
i have the biggest problem with some people and the façade that they put up.
I am the worst of them all...well atleast to some degree. My mask changes depending upon who i am around,
I am the worst of them all...well atleast to some degree. My mask changes depending upon who i am around,
9/18/2003
First post
Hey Yall,
As you can see this is my first post and well I thought I would start off by telling you exactly why I am doing this and a little bit about myself. Over the summer my life began to become more and more hectic or "Drama" Filled--whatever you wish to call it. So I felt that the best way to aleviate this unwanted stress on my life would be to just get it out, whether that be writing or talking. However, I seem to lack that one person that when thick comes to thin, I can turn to and just tell him or her exactly what I want to say. Don't get me wrong I have a lot of great friends but none that I think would really want the burdon of listening to my problems. Thus, I turned to the internet. I mean come on this is the age of technology isn't it? Who writes in a journal anymore? Ok fine I would have but the fact is my mind works in such a sparatic, random manner that it's like, whats the use? My paper be either a giant eraser mark, a bunch of crossed out words, or a bunch of words inserted by little arrows and such. So anyways I found that some of my friends started to write in online journals, but when I looked into doing that, I found that it cost money. How gay is that? I mean it wasn't a lot but still I do not want to pay anything for this. Then one day while checking Jaclyn's men to marry list, I found a link to this site. How fortunate, a free site. And to that I want to say thanks to blogger and to Jackie.
Okay now onto myself. Hmm... well I am a senior at Mountain Pointe High School. I am 6'2" a buck sixty or so, with short brown hair. I have some weird eyes, they are green on the outside with a little brown on the inside. I play soccer, volleyball, and golf (i use to play baseball). I like to play any sport that has a ball pretty much. As you will notice through what I write, I can tell many things about the person through their actions and I will be very critical of them. However, I too notice the faults of my own and will not be any less harsh on my self. thats what i think the main difference between myself and some of those i know is.
Throughout my life the people who have been there no matter what have always been my parents. I can tell you that there is no freakin' way that I could have made it this far, this well off, without them and I owe more than I am worth or that I could ever give to them. They are without doubt my biggest fans in life. My mom always jokes about how her and my dad are and will always be my biggest fans no matter what I decide to do. I always joke around and say, "Oh, yeah yeah I know mom, sure u guys are" but on the inside I know this is true and I really appreciate their support.
Being that I am a senior entails that I will need to make some very important decisions in my life in the near future. The big issue is what college? First off I know how people are always so happy to get out on their own, and leave their parents but to tell you the truth, I am scarred to go off to college. I mean geez, how could you not be just a little scarred .
As you can see this is my first post and well I thought I would start off by telling you exactly why I am doing this and a little bit about myself. Over the summer my life began to become more and more hectic or "Drama" Filled--whatever you wish to call it. So I felt that the best way to aleviate this unwanted stress on my life would be to just get it out, whether that be writing or talking. However, I seem to lack that one person that when thick comes to thin, I can turn to and just tell him or her exactly what I want to say. Don't get me wrong I have a lot of great friends but none that I think would really want the burdon of listening to my problems. Thus, I turned to the internet. I mean come on this is the age of technology isn't it? Who writes in a journal anymore? Ok fine I would have but the fact is my mind works in such a sparatic, random manner that it's like, whats the use? My paper be either a giant eraser mark, a bunch of crossed out words, or a bunch of words inserted by little arrows and such. So anyways I found that some of my friends started to write in online journals, but when I looked into doing that, I found that it cost money. How gay is that? I mean it wasn't a lot but still I do not want to pay anything for this. Then one day while checking Jaclyn's men to marry list, I found a link to this site. How fortunate, a free site. And to that I want to say thanks to blogger and to Jackie.
Okay now onto myself. Hmm... well I am a senior at Mountain Pointe High School. I am 6'2" a buck sixty or so, with short brown hair. I have some weird eyes, they are green on the outside with a little brown on the inside. I play soccer, volleyball, and golf (i use to play baseball). I like to play any sport that has a ball pretty much. As you will notice through what I write, I can tell many things about the person through their actions and I will be very critical of them. However, I too notice the faults of my own and will not be any less harsh on my self. thats what i think the main difference between myself and some of those i know is.
Throughout my life the people who have been there no matter what have always been my parents. I can tell you that there is no freakin' way that I could have made it this far, this well off, without them and I owe more than I am worth or that I could ever give to them. They are without doubt my biggest fans in life. My mom always jokes about how her and my dad are and will always be my biggest fans no matter what I decide to do. I always joke around and say, "Oh, yeah yeah I know mom, sure u guys are" but on the inside I know this is true and I really appreciate their support.
Being that I am a senior entails that I will need to make some very important decisions in my life in the near future. The big issue is what college? First off I know how people are always so happy to get out on their own, and leave their parents but to tell you the truth, I am scarred to go off to college. I mean geez, how could you not be just a little scarred .
